Oh the guilt!

Hello all I am posting this in the hopes of letting out some of my feelings of guilt. My beautiful daughter who is 11 was diagnosed in January 2013 with Dyslexia. Mind you by this time she was already half way through her last year in elementary. As a mom I was relieved that it was finally diagnosed given that I had felt she was dyslexic since the 1st grade. The diagnosis did not come easy. After she was given the test at the end of last school year (June 2011) we did not get the results until Sept 2011. This is where we learned that she was not qualified for Dyslexia. I didn't accept that. I obtained a second opinion and from that is was determined by another diagnostician that she indeed did have it. I had to plead my case with the school who then administered another test. After the schools second test it was like magic that they agreed that she was Dyslexic. WOW!!! I still cannot understand why they didn't feel that was after her first test. She started getting accommodations in the classroom but I could still see that she struggled. She was not able to pass the STAAR test and may be retained. I keep thinking to myself "why did I listen to her first grade teacher???" I should have never second guessed my motherly intuition but I did. My heart breaks every time I see her struggle with homework and when she says that her friends are smarter than her. Why should a child feel like this especially when they are working hard to keep up with their peers and most often trying harder than everyone as well??? My baby has fallen through the cracks of the Texas Education System. It's a tough pill to swallow when you know your child needs extra help but are told that there is nothing available but yet pre-k students whose second language is English get tutoring and summer school to prepare them for kinder. I just don't get it but I will not give up my fight to ensure my girl gets the education that she deserves.